clover..

One evening, I was making dinner. A simple dinner that was fried eggs. Then I see this face! So cute then I captured it :-)

Few days ago... I had a big arguments with my bf...

My bf is a workaholic man, he did two jobs day and nights, before he do night job he did told me about it, and he did tell me that he will be working night and day and he will less sms or call me. At first I try to be understanding, i did understand him and what he's planning, I never thought it will be hard on us... I told him, i'm ok if he didnt call me.. but i do care and i want him to sms me everyday. He agreed.

Few months later... things totally changed, slowly he less sms me... and there's a day he didnt sms me at all. I felt completely insecure with that situation. We had fights and he started keep silent, he knows it's his faults so he just silent. But he should know that silent makes me even sad and angry at him.

Most of our arguments is because of him... and usually when i'm upset is just because of him and his busy-ness! I used to be a spoiled girlfriend, to him and to my exes ;p But, I changed when I'm with my bf now.. he teach me how to be patient and more understanding. He teach me to be more matured than before :) I can feel it now.. that I'm more calm whenever I feel upset with him. But the only thing that makes me looks miserable is when I'm so angry and said everything that's on my mind. I know my words is hurting him.. but he still forgave me.

And... the silly thing about our love is.. he made alot of broken promises because of his works. and I even said 'end for us' and suddenly realized that I don't want to lose him. but the end.. i still forgive him and he still said 'we are still together'

I realized, the moment when i said about break up.. i get so scared that he will not be mine again... and that's when i'm so regret of saying it. it's so silly to think about it again...

we did a lot of silly things when we are in a relationship, women will forgive man easily and man will keep doing the same mistakes. that's how silly they are ;p

When the first time I know my sot... he tell me a lot about Bobby. He shows his picture taken together with Bobby.. and when we were dating.. he also talks alot about Bobby. Everything is about Bobby. Bobby Bobby Bobby.. sometimes makes me jealous! ;p

Who the hell is Bobby???

Lol! yes, Bobby is his pet. Beloved pet. until now i still heard he say.. "my bobby" but, I don't really get jealous now.. I'm happy that he's that kind of guy who loves animal. I loves dogs too... but I prefer a cat.

We talk a lot about our pets. ;p I even get to know Bobby well and I told him about my smelly cat, and we gave our pet names. I called Bobby as Bob. and Mewmew for my cat. hahahaha.

mewmew the smelly fat cat:

my sot with bob

A guy who loves dogs or animal is usually is a sweet guy. :) hehe i got one here. hahaha! sot is a very sweet boyfriend. :) well... nothing much i want to write tonight.. suddenly all my ideas gone! ;p

I watched eat,pray,love last sunday... i heard about this story from my sister, she claimed that this book (the movie was adapted from a book) wrote by a writer based on her true story... she said it's a good story but she haven't finish read it yet. hahaha. so.. then, i watched Oprah, and they make scope of this movie which is been released end of last year. Ever since i watched Oprah show, I really wanted to watch this movie.. so then, i did.

well... I'm not going to talk about the movie, i'm going to talk about my 'eat.pray.love' and i so recommend you all to go watch this movie on DVD. lol...

::eat::
People see me as a skinny girl, mini and short.. hahaa. but me, i always see myself as a big fat girl. ;p you all never know how much foods go inside my tummy everyday. usually on weekends i eat alot and i craving for foods~~! I do agree when people say.. you are enjoying your life when you eat all the good foods and enjoy your meals.. try new foods every weeks or months if you are a busy person, you will find yourself will be much happier when you feed your tummy with great foods.

::pray::
I'm not a holly person, i skip church sometimes, but lately i went to church, go confession and thanks to God i feel much calm now and so i can feel i get back my spirit. hahaha ;p and.. i trying so much to believe in God and believe in everything that happened to me has a reason. trust me.. when you believe on a good things.. it really works :)

::love::
I used to say.. i'm not lucky in love.. i always been dump and been broken heart.. but, i try to believe in love again.. so that its happens that i met someone now, and i can feel this one is soo different. well still.. i dare not to hope. :) i'll just LOVE, love and love... because i believe when you give.. you'll get a return :)

so friends.. be positive always! it's nice to know you read this. so great feelings that i've shared. <3

This guy is sooo sot! the first time i know him... he keep calling me 'sakai' and i called him 'sot' hahaha! and until now it still ok if we calling each other with that weird names. hahaha!

As i remember... 1 month after we know, he keep pushing me to be his girlfriend but i keep let him wait and ask him to do so many things just to make him wait, the funny part was.. that time when i know him, i just broke up with my ex-bf and i told him i got one condition that.. i won't date anybody before i been single for 3 months. hahaha. and this sot guy agree to wait and everyday.. he's the one who is remind me how many days left.. ;p How many days left until the day we going to be couple or not. i keep saying that he have to wait to know the answer but actually it's so obvious we like each other already hahaha ;p

now..... we are going to be 7months 5days as a couple.. we've been into a big crisis last year but then.. everything is ok already. Now.. we still a loving couple, it just that he still a busy man, and i'm trying so hard to understand him and i know he's trying to give some of his time for me too. i believe that this love will be last forever. :)

i lob this sot guy so muchhy! hahahhaa ;p

Location : Look out points, KL.
I've been here with my boyfriend, I ask him to bring me to a nice place for taking pictures together. Then he bring me here, he said it's a small 'Genting' at KL, lol... because of the road was like snake! and that place must be very high but because of it was night so i don't really have idea how high it is. I was kind of not used to see... there still got a lot of humans.. wandering there at midnight. lol.. and there's a lot of cafe there, nice place to hang out and dating. lol.. :)

I always loves clovers.. ^_^

I'm going to tell you a short story about what happened to me recently... it's about feelings, a guy and a stupid head! haha

I know this guy about three months ago.. at first I like him, but like him as a new friend, he's funny but he's totally not the type of a guy that I like. But the funny things was, I still go out with him.. he's that kind of guy that never give up on asking, and the way he asking is still make me comfortable. First date was awesome, I kind of like him more, the dating is fun and I like to go out with him again and we can't wait for the second date. lol

Don't know why for the second and third dates... I was like...  not into him, and I can feel that he's not sincere with me, he have someone else actually, even though I don't have the proof but I can feel it, I never wrong with my instinct.. at first I really want to give up on him, I mean stop seeing him, that is before our first date. But then he keep insist to meet me... so I've decided to give it a try, I don't bother if his heart is belong to other woman, I don't mind, and I told myself to try steal his heart from that woman. hahahahha that's when I said 'stupid head' LOL

I try my very best to steal it. I DID!! but.. at some points, I really cannot do it.. because I'm a good girl and.. I'm not willing to go further... I stop because I don't want to get hurt and I don't think I like him more than anything or maybe not yet. But my heart really whisper to me to stop.... then I did...

And for now... I'm kind of sad to end this relationship, this weird relationship.. so what I should say here is.. don't you ever play dumb with your owns feelings or others feelings. GUYS ARE STILL GUYS.. even they have someone special in their heart, they still go flirting with others, even a good guy do. But no matter how many girls they play with,... they still go back to the one that in their heart... so if you are happens to be someone who is just a 'second choice' of some guy that you know... you better stop before you get hurt.. :)

p/s : I'm good with giving an advice, try me ;p